Have You Heard of Voice to Skull Technology?

In 2018 I lived in a shelter.  A homeless shelter.  For 3 years, off and on in various different shelters.  For the homeless.  Even working 20-25 hours a week, but not earning enough for supporting myself on my own.  No drugs.  No addictions.  But, this was the path my life took.

I participated in a Love Citywide project.  And, we painted trashcans in exchange for experience, community, dignity and gift cards.  During that time, I met an old former "church friends" who were partnering with the project as group leaders.  It was a pleasant surprise to run into these friends.  I thought, wow God is so nice to let me be reconnected to these people.  From their end, the husband secretly wondered (I would find out later) is she homeless?  She can't be homeless!  And, the wife was reminded the next day that she had been praying in her quiet time for a divine appointment, and God reminded her that I was her divine appointment!

The next weekend they invited me to their home group and I got reconnected to the church Body of Christ.  That was a wonderful time and season for me.  I felt like life was moving in a good direction.  The church was having an all-day conference Saturday, and I was invited/encouraged to participate in that.  So I did.  

After that conference, driving in my car on the way home, I "heard an audible voice."  That audible voice called my name!  At that time, I had never heard of V2K/voice to skull technology, so it never crossed my mind until recently.  I originally "thought" or believed God was actually speaking to me!  (Why He only called my name once and said nothing else to me did not cross my name at the time.)  Now, in retrospect, I *think* this was a test or a kind of pre-run of some kind of V2K tech in operation.  When I told my small group leader, she told me "that's amazing".  I wish she would have *warned* me about V2K, but I am thinking that she may not have known about it either.  Another thing I often experience is the smell of cigarette smoke all the time (okay not all the time but more often than desired).  Where is that smoke smell coming from?!  Sigh.  Without a good job it is impossible to earn a decent living.  At least, this is my experience.  

Of Faith, Hope and Love

One of my earliest memories is of when I was around 3 years old.  My mom and I were getting onto a bus together; I had my Raggedy Ann doll with me.  I'm not sure why, but I was mad or upset about something.  I don't recall what about exactly, but I do remember wanting to throw my doll down.  I threw the Raggedy Ann doll onto the bus seat, testing in a way, to see what my mom would do or how she would react.  I think I recall my Dad raising his voice to her and she would never stand up for herself, and I would wonder why does she just let him mistreat her that way.  So, after I threw that doll, all my mom told me was to go pick it up.  That's it.  She showed no anger, no mean words; only an instruction to me, to get it and maybe to sit down.

Another early memory I have is my 5th or 6th year birthday.  My mom asked me what kind of cake did I want?  I was into Snow White and the 7 Dwarfs at that time, so I told her that's the cake I wanted.  And, I got it!  My next door neighbor babysitter came to the party.  She got me the game called "Sorry".  Someone else gave me a gumball machine!  They sang happy birthday to me.  We played musical chairs.  And we also played pin the tail on the donkey game.  I'm not sure who the other kids were.  But, it was a day that made me feel special and loved as my birthday was celebrated.  

In reality, however, I did not get a birthday celebration every year.  In fact, I can only recall on my hand the number of celebrations for my birthday.  I think in 4th grade or maybe 6th grade I was allowed a girls sleepover birthday party, and that time or another time my parents took us to the movies.  I think we might have watched "Broomsticks and Candlesticks" but I don't remember very clearly.

For my 16th birthday, my mom took me to Farrel's Ice Cream Parlour, and invited a half dozen or dozen friends also.  No one came!  I take that back.  One girl came, who was new in town.  Other than that one girl, who probably thought how strange and sad no one came to my birthday party at Farrels!

For my 18th birthday, I asked my parents for a home party, and they said yes.  This time, I invited everyone.  Family, and I had met a bunch of new friends at school from a student led Bible Study in high school.  They all came!  The house was full.  There might have been beers and what-not for the adults.  But, my friends and I stuck with soda.  One of the Bible study leaders pulled me aside and said there shouldn't be any drinking (alcohol) there, or something to that effect.  I didn't have any answer for him.  I was just glad everyone was there, having a good time, and getting celebrated for my birthday.

And, a dear friend let me celebrate birthday number 25 with a bunch of friends from college.  And, that was a special time for me.  We had around 25-30 young people, mostly from our Inter-Varsity Christian Fellowship club on campus there.  It rained hard that night, and people still came out.  It was fun.  We might have prayed and sang worship songs.  There was a lot of food.  I don't recall all of it.  But, it was special time for me because I usually did not get celebrated on my birthday.

The Bible teaches that all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.  When we do not forgive someone from our heart, it is possible for a root of bitterness to seep into our lives, leading us down a dark pathway.  Well, this is what happened in my life.  In my early 20s, I deeply loved someone and it seemed like we would marry someday.  We talked or met at least 2-3 times a week together, at church, in youth group, or as friends.  However, he did not have the same feelings for me as what I had had for him.  I became deeply hurt.  Rather than letting it go, however, the hurt remained.  And, instead of taking it to Jesus, at the time, I just let the wound fester so to speak.  And, that wound didn't heal properly.

And, I made poor decisions afterwards, not realizing at the time whether or not they were connected.  But these words from the New Testament, "he brought me out of darkness and into his glorious light" became true for me.  I chose to believe God's truth and God's goodness, that Christ died even for me and for my sin.  The precious blood of Jesus Christ is what cleanses me from sin.

I do not recall the exact age, but I participated in a correspondence Bible study for kids.  I might have been around 13 or 14, or maybe a tad bit older like 16-17.  But, that mail-in Bible study taught me a lot!  Each "lesson" had a Bible passage or series of passages to read, along with questions to answer on the text.  I was led to learn about the problem of original sin from Adam and Eve in the garden of Eden.  I learned that the penalty of sin would be death.  The good news is that God provided an escape from eternal death through Jesus Christ.  I also remembering learning (for the 1st time) that "as far as the east is from the west is how far he has removed my transgression from me" and also, "God's word will not return to him void".  

So, today through this blog, I am trying to share what Jesus has done for me.  Jesus forgave me of all my sins.  Jesus, for the joy set before him, endured the cross.  God loved me so much that he gave his only son Jesus Christ to die in my place to pay for my sin's penalty of death.  Wow.  What love.  Wow, what sacrifice.  Wow, what an amazing God.

Today I am learning and growing in my faith and in the word of God.  I am currently undergoing a 90 day reading challenge through the New Testament, getting the word of God into me again, afresh and anew.  Today I read how the apostle Paul preached the kingdom of God boldly and welcomed all who came to him (see Acts 28:30-31).   Whatever else God expects of me, I am open to learning and correction.  I want to be a vessel for noble purposes.  I want to live according to his ways.  There are changes in my life that I might have to make, also.

I share a part of my story (testimony) today in hopes of a few things.  One, if you're a believer, maybe my story will encourage you in the faith.  Two, if you're not a believer in Jesus Christ, maybe my story will open your eyes to your own need of Jesus Christ and maybe you will turn to Jesus Christ and repent from sin.  Yes, wherever you find yourself on the spectrum of faith today, from hot faith to no faith, I hope that maybe God would use my story today to bring you one step closer to him today.  May God fill your heart with hope; may God fill your heart with faith.  May we all agree that none, not one is righteous in God's eyes.  We all need Jesus Christ today.  We all need to surrender our lives over to his care and his authority today.  If you're reading this and you have not yet done so I hope that you would give your heart and life to Christ today.

Thank you for taking the time to read my story today.  May Jesus Christ richly bless anyone reading this now.

A Light Unto My Feet

I don't have the best relationship with my mom.  I used to idolize my mom.  I used to think she was "the best".  However, beginning in 2020, and maybe even a little before then, I began to see a different side of my mom; and that is when I began to see that maybe she wasn't "all that" like I had previously thought.

Last week, my mom asked me a question.  I answered it.  But, then she proceeded to ask me another question, and then another.  I think she was seeking a confrontation with me!  Whether she realized it or not, the dark side spirits operating behind the scenes, if you will, may have been trying to provoke me; but, she is the one who lost her temper.  What's really sad, is that, she has resentment towards me from over 5 years ago.

Jesus said our enemies would be members of our own household.  In 2018 my dad was sick and in the hospital. At that time, my mom asked if I would stay with her, presumably so that she wouldn't have to stay home alone overnight.  I agreed, and at times I would cook a nice pot of chili or a tray of enchiladas for her, so that when she came home from the hospital visit with my dad, she could have something to eat.

In early 2019, my dad passed away from a collapsed lung.  I really had thought and believed God was going to heal my dad from his illness.  But, God had other plans.  On the night my dad passed, my 2 brothers asked if I was going to stay living with mom now that dad was gone?  I replied, "only if everyone agrees".  And that is how I moved into my parent's home after my dad passed away.

My mom and I made some agreements with chores and household duties.  I did those things at first, but over time I did not keep up my end of the deal.  I own that.  However, what's really "weird" is that my mom would be mean, raise her voice, and use other critical tactics against me.  I in turn, responded by withdrawing; I separated myself from her as a defense mechanism, as a way of "protecting myself" from further verbal harm from her (in my mind).  Yes, if she is going to attack me and pick fights with me, then I am going to retreat myself for my own personal safety.

I do not earn enough money from my jobs to survive on my own.  I would either have to rent a room, or live in a shelter or on the streets.  This is my reality.  It's not a feeling sorry for myself.  Nor is this a victim mentality statement.  Rather, I am stating the truth as I see it today.  I live in southern California.  Rents for a one-bedroom apartment are anywhere from $1500 and upwards.  Please do the math.  Job one pays minimum wage for 4 hours a week.  Job two pays minimum wage for 10 hours a week.  That's 14 hours times $15 an hour; this equals less than $800 a month.  Therefore, I consider living with my mom to be a gift, at least for having a roof over my head, a warm bed to sleep on, and some of the conveniences of modern living.  But, there's no fellowship between us.  We do not share Christ between us.

My mom keeps busy with many of her groups.  One group is a bereavement group for those who have lost a loved one.  Another group is a women's group with her childhood friend's church; it's a 501c3 church mega church out in Riverside, California.  And, I think she also attends another women's group in Orange County as well, in someone's home.  But, she never talks with me about God, or Jesus, the Bible or anything.  She has her "routine".  She likes to watch TV morning news; she thinks that watching the news keeps her informed of what's going on.  Um, what?!  And, in the evening she watches TV again; the game shows her and my dad used to watch, and then worldly movies on one of the streaming spaces.  This is simply to report her mindset is on the world, the things of this world.  Yes, she does attend a church service Sunday mornings locally in Anaheim somewhere, and then they feed the poor together as a group of friends from church.  I will give her that.  

What was strange to me, when the covid shots first came out, she said everyone would just have to pray on it.  That was one of my first "red flags" when it came to my mom.  Why would this woman, who never talks with me about God, or Jesus, or anything from the Bible, all of a sudden, out of nowhere, tell me each person would just have to pray about taking the vaccine?  Um, are you kidding me?!  

At that time, God had given me knowledge on the vaccine and its dangers and not to take it!  How could God tell her to pray on it and tell me not to take it?  

Another red flag I got from my mom was the day one of our neighbors was walking by in the front yard.  We said hello and exchanged friendly greetings with one another.  She asked me how I was doing, and I distinctly recall telling her exactly the truth.  Later, I relayed the story to my mom, and I recall my mom saying something to the effect of, "oh you should have just told her something-something".  In essence, while I was expressing authenticity with the neighbor, my mom was suggesting that I should have "just lied" to the neighbor.  I remember wondering to myself, why does my mom advise me to lie?  

So, I'm not saying I'm a perfect person.  Scripture is clear that all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.  But, God does have standards and Jesus teaches that we are to live in obedience to his Word.

In 2020, when lockdowns were imposed in California, I used that time to seek the Lord.  I began to open my Bible and repent of the sins that I read about:  complacency, stealing, impurity, and so on.  I began to seek the Lord in videos online; I began to give money more freely to ministries that were feeding the poor or spreading the gospel of Jesus Christ.  I began to pray and have victory over sin of impurity (the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes and/or the pride of life sins).  I confessed to my zoom small group members at the time that I was indeed very fearful of "catching covid" and asked for prayer.  They prayed for me, and also recommended a video (Plandemic).  I eventually gave up my Netflix, too.

What did my mom do?  I saw her turn to wine and alcohol.  She kept busy.  She got rid of a lot of my dad's things.  She spent every night watching worldly movies.  I can only hope and pray that God might shower her with mercy.  

Last week, I told her she needed to repent.  Big mistake.  Out came the mocking and scoffing demons out of her mouth.  So, this is how I know my time living with her is coming to a close, to an end.  Yes, I can pray that the demonic spirits stop attacking me, in Jesus Christ of Nazareth's name.

But, I think God has a new thing for me; a better place for me.  Even in our last argument, my mom was raising her voice to me.  When I told her she did not have the right to raise her voice to me, she stopped herself from raising her voice, but her tone was still prideful (in my opinion).

So, for these reasons and more, I am prayerfully considering what my next steps will be.  I take hope and comfort in God's Word, for it says, "thy word is a lamp unto my feet and a guide unto my path."  

Thank you for reading my post.  May Jesus Christ of Nazareth bless anyone reading this page now.  Shalom.  

Repent or Perish

Who said to repent from your sin and turn to Christ?  A siple word search or reading of the Bible will reveal the truth.  I hope that you will daily repent of any and all sin, known or unknown, and that God would find you acceptable in His sight.

So repent [change your inner self—your old way of thinking, regret past sins] and return [to God—seek His purpose for your life], so that your sins may be wiped away [blotted out, completely erased], so that times of refreshing may come from the presence of the Lord [restoring you like a cool wind on a hot day];  (Acts 3:19 Amplified Bible)

Matthew 4:17

From that time on Jesus began to preach, "Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is near."

“The time promised by God has come at last!” he announced. “The Kingdom of God is near! Repent of your sins and believe the Good News!” (Mark 1:5 NLT).

What's the "good news"?  What's the gospel?

First of all, if something is to be "good news", then there must be some bad news.  Let's start there.  Can you think of anything that might be considered bad news?  What comes to mind when you think of bad news?

Do you remember the story of Adam and Eve in the book of Genesis?  What happened there?  Was there a snake or a serpent involved, also?  What happened?  

Because of Adam and Eve's disobedience to the Lord by listening to the snake and eating that which God had forbidden her to eat, Adam and Eve brought sin into the world.  Adam listened to Eve, and Eve listened to the serpent; both sinned before God.  This is the bad news.  From there on out, sin has been the separation factor for mankind and God.  Sin separates mankind from a holy God; the bad news is that we all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.

Have you ever told a white lie?  Or have you ever had hate in your heart to someone else?  According to Jesus's standards, then you have sinned.  What does a person who has sinned deserve?  The punishment for sin is death; eternally.  So, every person who has ever sinned deserves to be cast away forever to eternal lake of fire.  Let that sink in.  Read it again if you need to.

Idolatry, or having other gods besides the One True God, is sin.  That was the first commandment God gave to Moses.  Do you remember?  Jesus said in the New Testament that even if you break only one commandment, that you are guilty of breaking all of the commandments in his eyes.  Do you take a shower every day?  Or, every other day?  Or once a week?

Just like most people bathe daily, or at least regularly in the natural, so too, in the spiritual way we need to get a spiritual cleansing every day also.  How does one do this you ask?

1John 1:9 is a promise for believers in Christ; please look it up.  What does it say? What are the conditions for forgiveness?  What are the results of confessing our sin to God?  We must live according to his word, and confession to God of our sins is one way to receive his cleansing from all unrighteousness.

However, not only do we put off sin in our lives, but we are also supposed to put on something.  We are to put on the love of Christ; the good works of the saints.  It's not enough to say I'm forgiven and then go on living like a heathen or how you want.  Good works must follow or come after one has asked for God's forgiveness through Christ Jesus.

We don't just get to heaven because we want to get there.  We must get there because we have obeyed the manual that tells us how to get there.  Jesus said, "I am the way and the truth and the life.  No one gets to the Father but by Me" in John 14:6.  What did he mean?  Was he talking about good works?  Was he talking about our fleshly desires?  Was he talking about a relationship with Christ?

Beloved, if you seek him you will find him.  What is in your heart today?  Do you have a real, living, ongoing relationship with God the Father through Jesus Christ?  Do not be "playing church" and think that if you go to a small group or large worship gathering that it makes you safe and saved.  Jesus said in Matthew 7:13 "Broad is the road that leads to destruction and narrow is the way that leads to life; and only a few find it."  Would you pray to him today and ask him to help you make sure you are indeed on his narrow path?  And, if you are not on his narrow path, would you ask him to help you get on and stay on his narrow path to life.

I hope this helps anyone reading it who is sincerely seeking God, Jesus Christ of Nazareth and the Holy Spirit today.  Jesus said, 'repent or perish"; the choice is yours.  What will you choose today?

Warning from God?

A couple nights ago I dreamt of people scanning themselves with a tattoo type of QR code to make purchases, such as food and groceries in front of a vending machine type of structure.  People would wave their hands and the locked glass door would open and they could grab their things and leave.  My turn came to try, but because I did not have the QR code tattoo on my body anywhere, I was not allowed to get anything, and I was sent away empty handed.  I felt angry and upset, and wanted to lash out with my words to them.  Yet, at the same time, I was deciding what words to say to them, also.  And then the dream ended.  We were in an auditorium / amphitheater type of area, with staggered seating, and it was very well-lit.  There were also "helpers" at the front stage area, kind of like at the Wal-Mart self-checkouts where they have employees available to help you if needed.  

I feel like the dream interpretation is self-explanatory.  However, I am praying for God's meaning of the dream to me.

It kind of reminded me of a time in 2021 or somewhere between 2020 and 2023 when I was at a local feed one Saturday morning at a Methodist church in Fullerton, California.  Everyone was required (forced) to wear a mask over their mouth if they wanted to get a plate of food.  I refused to wear a mask, and they (one girl volunteer) refused to serve me a plate of food!  I walked away, empty-handed, and when I was around the corner out of sight, tears oozed up to my eyes.  Imagine the injustice!  Blind volunteer, just following orders of the state.  But, I remember the feeling of outcast and rejection.  My friend was wearing his mask and he got a plate of food for me.

In my dream I wanted to warn them that this QR code tattoo on their bodies was the biblical mark of the beast.  I wanted to admonish them not to take it.

It's possible that God is calling me to warn and admonish people in this late hour to not take the mark of the beast.  Also, God may be showing me that I may be prohibited from buying without this QR code tattoo.  Maybe God is confirming that this QR code tattoo is somehow related to the biblical mark of the beast.  Also, because the area was well-lit, this tells me that it has been occurring in broad daylight, right under our noses; many people are or have been being deceived into getting it.

Dear Jesus, 

Would you please help me to pass the test?  Would you please help me to do your will and obey you at every opportunity I get?  Lord Jesus I love you so much; thank you for your precious blood and for loving me.  Please help me live holy and right before you for as many days as you have given for me.  I bless your name.  Amen.