TRIGGER WARNING.
READER BEWARE. The following article may be "triggering"for some people. If you have a background of unhealed trauma, abuse or wounds, then please proceed with caution. I intentionally began and ended this particular article specifically with Scripture. It is not my intent to re-open old wounds on the reader's end. In this post, I ramble about some of the abuse I have personally experienced, as it recently "popped up" again in my memory. I brainstormed in this article and used it more as a journal type of entry. I wrote in part, for my own benefit, but also in hopes of letting others know that THEY ARE NOT ALONE. I pray the reader may find a safe place where the Lord can bring healing and restoration to his/her soul, body, spirit, mind, if needed.
The above paragraph is my up-to-date "edited" version of this article. Today I am writing this at 7:51 PM (Pacific Time Zone) on Thursday, June 1st, 2023.
Additional Resource: I am currently in progress of reading a book I "stumbled upon" called, "The Lie Effect: Overcoming Soul Abduction-A Survivor's Handbook" written by Collene James and Nancy Bowser. This book seems to offer hope and a pathway towards healing written from a biblical perspective, from what I can tell so far.
Original Blog Post Starts with next sentence:
JESUS SAID YOU WILL KNOW THE TRUTH AND THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE...
around age 5 pulled into a school play suddenly to play the role of mother mary; instructed to hold baby jesus a toy doll wrapped in a blanket and to just sit there sitting still
molested at age 5 or 6 ish...by a neighbor on victoiea street in city of south gate california...adults told us NOT to tell anyone and...we had to wait outside in the front yard unti it was our turn to go in...the young boy or teenager i'm not sure was lying flat on a bed-table and we were instructed or invited to asked to "do something" let the reader understand and when I didn't comply even after several tries they changed their tactic and used a lesser form of violation...
2XL toy robot...8 track millimeter toy "TOY" the beginning of techne...
around age 5 or 6 someone tried to teach me how to draw a 5 pointed star...and told me to draw circle around it...
I did tell an adult about what happened and the next day my dad yelled at me to never go over there to that house again (thankful my dad had sense and saved me from future torture)...
buried underground tried to gorget but suddenly had a memory of it around age 30 ish or so when i began to volunteer for sunday school teacher of kids and the application asks that question...just as i was about to reply no not ever violated suddenly (i believe by the spirit of God Elohim) I "remembered" to which i explained at the time, an ATTEMPT had been made to violate me (because at that time i had no understanding yet that even that was a violation of my being)...
2nd grade patriot programming...we were told to write an essay on why we love america usa...and after the teachers praised my essay to make me feel really good and special of writing in general and of what i wrote...
JESUS CHRIST IS THE WAY THE TRUTH AND THE LIFE NO ONE COMES TO THE FATHER BUT THROUGH HIM JESUS CHRIST OF NAZARETH YEHUSHUA YWVH YAHWEH KING OF KINGS LORD OF LORDS LION OF JUDAH LAMB SLAIN WHO SITS UPON THE THRONE FOREVER
